I’m not experienced with relationships. As a matter of fact, I’m in my first, and last relationship as of right now. I know for a fact that I won’t feel the same way I feel with anyone else. When I’m with Jeah, I have no shame. I would shout to the world that I love this girl. No matter what, through good times and bad, I will never think any less of her regardless of what she does. And I will always love her with all that I have.
There’s something about her kiss that knocks me off my feet.. literally. When we first kissed, I nearly fell. I had never felt anything in my life before. It’s like these shivers when down my spine, and fireworks have exploded in my mind. And of course, my lips felt a tingling sensation.
One night, me and Jeah were laying on the couch, exhausted from a long day. As we sat there, we kissed each other. At the point in time, my lips simply couldn’t part from hers. These fireworks in my mind were exploding, the shivers were back in my spine, and my lips tingled, leaving me breathless. Our lips fit so perfectly together, like two puzzle pieces finally being interlocked together. So much emotions run through my mind when we kiss. It’s as if all the good times that we both shared all come together and create a form of pure bliss in my soul.
It’s something that I get to experience every day for the rest of my life. I finally know what that “spark”, that everyone talks about, is. I love it. I’m genuinely falling for this girl more and more every single day…
Those three simple words, could rip my heart apart piece by piece. It could hurt me more than anything you could possibly do. Even worse than pushing me away. The reason I never wanted you to push me away is to prevent those words from escaping your mouth.
I know I make my stupid mistakes, and some are more stupid than others. When you said “I hate you”, I literally almost collapsed, and you left me there. I walked to my history class scared and not knowing what to do. I looked down on the ground because I didn’t want to see, hear or greet anyone on the way to my next class. My mind kept on replaying that moment when you said that to me. As I sat down in my class, the teacher put on a movie. Luckily no one could hear me cry softly over the loud surround sound.
I really needed you at the moment, so I texted you saying so. You agreed to meet me outside. Right when I saw you, I held you so as tight as I could and just started bawling right on your shoulder. I genuinely didn’t care what people thought, I was in pain. The next I know, I’m back in class, watching a movie. It was dark, so people didn’t notice me crying and shaking due to queasiness. I never thought that you’d say that to me, and it caught me so off guard. Now that you know how to hurt me, I beg that you won’t take advantage of it, like you sometimes push me away because you know how much it hurts me.
I know I make my mistakes, sometimes I think without acting. I don’t know how I could be so stupid. I try my hardest to be better for you, I really do.
You said you didn’t mean it when you said that to me. And of course I believe you, It’s wrong for me to think otherwise. but regardless if you meant it or not, it hurt me more than anything in my entire life. And now that moment is engraved in my mind, it will forever be a cloud of thoughts that will haunt me every time we fight from now on.
The rest of the day returned back to normal after we talked things through, but that cloud of thoughts remained in the back of my mind. And it continuously hurting me throughout the day, little by little. Sometimes I hate how good I am at hiding things…
He’ll probably act nervous around you if you two don’t know each other that well. He’ll try and make a good impression on you because he likes you. He’ll be awkward at some point. And if he’s like me, he’ll probably try and make you laugh or make a fool out of himself just to impress you >~<
He’ll also try and be friends with you. He’ll want to know you better to make sure that you’re the one for him. He’s gonna want to be your best friend before you two become something more.
Lastly, he’ll probably do silly things with you. What I would do with Jeah is that I would grab the stuffed animal backpack that she’d bring to school and make it kiss her face. Simply because it’s the closest I could get to kissing her at that point in time because I wasn’t with her
Any guy that just straight up flirts with you should be considered. The main thing you should do is befriend them and see where it goes from there. o;
This isn't a question, But, I was definitely going to x-out of tumblr awhile ago but I can't because of this stinking playlist. It's just a bit too good and relaxing. All chilled out now. Thank you random Tumblr user. God bless
LOL thanks xD I usually just post whatever song I’m addicted to at the time :D
I don't know if you give advice, I really hope so because I need a guys perspective... someone other than my close guy friends because they're extremely protective.
I really liked this boy SO MUCH. I thought everything was good between us when we were dating, but it was far from good. One of my best friends saw him at the movies with another girl; he kissed her. I told him, out of anger, that I never wanted to see him again and if he saw me at school to not come up to me and just forget everything we ever had. He wrote me a week after saying how much he missed me and how much he would do to fix everything between us and promised to never hurt me again. It's been about 3 weeks since this. I miss him so much, but everyone is telling me not to forgive him. Even I don't think I should, but I still really miss his company. What should I do?
Oh gosh >~< sorry I couldn’t answer this sooner, I spent the weekend in Vegas and I had no internet.
It sounds like you really like the guy a lot. I guess if I were you, I’d take my time with it. Don’t be fast with conclusions and forgive him on the spot. Since he cheated on you, I guess I’d keep the relationship to frendship status. Let him know that your trust in him isn’t as high as it used to be. Tell him to show you why he deserves a second chance. Let him earn that trust back. And when you feel that you can trust him again, then MAYBE you can consider getting back together with him.
Although you miss him so much, you need to make sure that he’ll follow up on his promise to “never hurt you again”. And the best way to make sure is to take things slow and see things out.
idk that’s what I would do o: I haven’t really been the person that gives advice, but I hope this helps. o;
Thanks to all the followers who have followed me the past week! I really appreciate it! I didn’t know a couple of gifs could do so much xD
Anyways, I’m probably going to start blogging more. I’ve been meaning to recently, but I’ve just been too busy spending my time with Jeah (the apple of my eye <3) If you just followed me, this is pretty much what my tumblr is about:
80%: Jeah, Love, Events with Jeah
10%: Anything pertaining to the art of Dance
5% Music/ Pictures
5%: Events in my life xD
As you can see my life mainly revolves around Jeah and I xD. Anyways, I hope you all have a great day :D
awee, you and jeah are so cute together!! the gifs you two do together are amazingly adorable (and some funny)!
thanks for following back!
mm, do you two always follow back? lol :) cuz i also followed her and she followed back :D
thanks :D those gifs are the product of our boredom LOL