Every night, me and Jeah always make sure to call one another. At first, this was something to get used to. I had never talked to anyone before going to sleep before. But as time progresses, what was something I had to get used to is now something I can’t live without. I like hearing her snore through the phone. I like hearing her talk in her sleep. I like hearing her move around making noise in the mic. Scratch that.. I don’t like them, I love them. It’s almost as if she was right there with me. It’d be nice to sleep with her. Just to cuddle. We probably won’t have sex. making love is the better term. Of course to me theres a fine line between the terms “sex” and “making love”, but I’ll save that for another post.
I’ve been thinking how incomplete I would feel if I were to sleep at night without her on the phone. Feeling the silence of my room will irritate me to the highest degree. I won’t be able to say “hai babe” over and over again until she giggles which I find extremely attractive. I wouldn’t be able to disagree with her when she says I have a cute sleepy voice. I won’t be able to remind her to say “forever and always” to me because sometimes she forgets. I won’t be able to wake up to her voice as she tries to wake me up for school, and I’ll say “mmmm 5 more minutes baby!!”. I wouldn’t be able to talk about our future with her. I would miss all of this. The silence I would feel at night would make me very uncomfortable now that I’m used to hearing her beautiful voice every night.
Being on the phone with her is the closest thing I can get to sleeping with her until we finally get to live together…..
I haven’t blogged in a while. Quite a while actually. Genuinely, I don’t know why..
I’ll try to blog more I guess. I like to vent out my feelings through dance (which I’ve been doing a lot recently). But writing is just as good I guess. I don’t know, but there’s just been so much going on my life that writing is purely a distraction. I’ve been enjoying life as it is I suppose. Until I get up to date with everything, everything that I post is a recap. There’s actually been a lot I’ve wanted to write about. So… here it goes.. not that most of you will care what’s going on in my life because most of you can assume that all I’ll talk about is Jeah (LOL). What can I say, I’m madly in love with this girl…